May 11, 2008

it's about time...

so i FINALLY got a mac!! i love it! 

i also love being able to pick up the wireless network from the hotel across the street... even if i do have to lay on the floor between my living room and office to pick it up... i don't mind so much!!!

lately i've been intrigued by the show jon and kate plus eight - it makes my blood pressure rise every time i watch it... too many kids and crazy and crazy... there is something to be said for her organizational skills... i can't imagine trying to manage their household... so i guess it's good that it is their life and not mine...

life is good... work is good... i feel like there are a lot of possibilities, but i'm not sure how it's all going to work out... so i'm just taking life one day at a time and making it work... 

so that's it...

there is a jon and kate plus eight marathon on... gotta go... may need some meds later, though... 

Apr 10, 2008

the girl with one brown shoe...

so this morning was a bit crazy... i woke up late (staying up late is a huge problem for me)... and i couldn't find my keys when i needed to find my keys... (i had to go through the whole process of thinking about where i had them last... i came home from work and probably put them on the kitchen counter... not there... not on the desk or the bar between the kitchen and office... oh, that's right, i went and got cds out of the car... maybe they're by my cds... nope, underneath the cds...) see how crazy my mind is?


in light of all of that, i was rushing around... and i quickly slipped my left foot into my cute little round-toed black heel... and then slipped my foot into my other little round-toed black heel, or so i thought...


i leave for work, clomp down the stairs (i still haven't mastered walking down stairs in heels)... hop (literally) into my car and leave for work... hit the red lights, get caught up in traffic due to a wreck... all that...


i pull up to the building 10 minutes late, but in enough time to be on time for departmental prayer... as i'm getting out of my car, i look down and realize i'm not wearing the right cute little round-toed black heel, but the cute little pointy-toed brown heel instead!!


too late to go home and change... and after waiting on the elevator for too long, i ended up being late to departmental prayer... not so good for the first week...


and with mismatched shoes, to boot (man, i'm glad i didn't mistake a boot for my black heel... that would have been REALLY embarassing!!!)


i'm pretty sure this was the first time this has happened... i only told a few people and i don't know if anyone else noticed... if they did, they didn't say anything... at least to my face...


dang. i'm probably like the "special" girl at work now...


i don't like mornings!!!

Apr 3, 2008

you might as well live.

i got the best package in the mail yesterday... there is something so amazing about walking up to my front door and seeing a big white or yellow envelope smushed between the glass door and the regular door... it's happened twice in the last two weeks...

this time it was a fun envelope of goodness from my dear friend who lives in texas... a mixtape and another cd with over the rhine songs... and a few other little goodies... she might be the most creative person i have ever known...

here are some things that are going on with me...

1) it's raining outside (rain, not men)... kind of a nasty day, but sometimes i just like those...

2) today is my last day of work at heritage... monday i start a new job with new opportunities and new challenges... i'm really excited about it... i'm hanging up my professional graphic designer/artist jersey and going to the less creative, more logical side of a career... i'll be a process coordinator in the donor relations department at familylife... don't know what that is? i don't either... it's something to do with lots of copy editing and details and deadlines... a few things i'm good at, in addition to being creative every now and then... here's a secret about me... i love excel spreadsheets... and using 10-key... sincerely...

3) i won tickets on the radio yesterday morning to go see brian regan... i have never seen him, but i have heard REALLY good things about him... i knew that he was coming and even contemplating going when i would have to buy a ticket... then i won 2... so i'm trying to figure out who to take with me... plus, i won tickets on the radio!!! it makes me think of the guy in one crazy summer who tries to win something on the radio... and he sits in that crazy room... i just called twice - once it was busy, then i was caller #9...

4) i've gotten in the habit of staying up REALLY late and it's not a good thing... why i was up until 2 a.m. watching romy and michelle's high school reunion last night or 2 a.m. watching kate and leopold is beyond me... maybe having a tv in my room is a bad thing!

5) i feel a good list has 5 things... so... my friend wende is coming in town to visit this weekend... i am excited to see my friend and to have house-guests... but i'm also not used to sharing my space... i have more cleaning to do... ugh...

oh - and tomorrow i have the day off... hooray for a 3-day weekend!!!

april is looking pretty good right about now!

Feb 12, 2008

And now the times are changin', Look at everything that's come and gone... those were the best days of my life...

every now and then, a friend comes along... and the word "friendship" doesn't quite begin to define the relationship... it's more than friendship... it's a kindred-spirit kind of relationship... and time can change it, but never kill it... there's something comforting about knowing that regardless of how much time passes that we will always be friends... and we will always have fun...

and somehow, the fun just gets better and better...

i really didn't know i could have that much fun on a monday night...

now if only we lived in the same town...

Jan 29, 2008

they say it's your birthday... well, it's my birthday, too...

i love birthdays... sometimes i forget how much i love them... but i do...

except for the rain that was only bad when i decided to walk out from underneath the shelter of the upstairs landing and put a huge damper on the time spent actually fixing my hair this morning... it has been a spectacular day and it's only 9:42... i won't let rain get me down...

and last night wasn't bad either...

here are the thank yous so far:

1) thank you, hot stranger, for wishing me happy birthday last night... for being observant and overhearing my conversations...

2) thank you, starbucks friends, for throwing me a party this morning including cake AND candles... you don't know how much you mean to me... seeing you in the mornings is the highlight of my day...

3) thank you, wende jackson, for calling me right at 12:00 a.m. to sing happy birthday to me...

4) thank you, alyssa sellers, for my favorite birthday card ever...

5) thank you, countless others, for comments and messages and cards and presents...

i've kind of decided 28 is going to be the best year... i have never felt such love and warmth and friendship by so many people all at once as i do here... and today...

Jan 21, 2008

Oh, Mexico, It sounds so sweet with the sun sinking low...

So… I went to Mexico…

I haven't gone on a mission trip where I was strictly a participant in over 4 years. Initially, when I heard about the trip, I thought that it was out of the question. Originally, it was going to be a longer trip and I knew I didn't have the vacation time to go… even though I wanted to…

Then things started changing and I know that God was working on my heart. The trip was shortened to just a few days and the cost was just about manageable. I decided that it was dumb for me not to consider it and almost as quickly as I was considering, I knew I was going to be on the trip…

Then the price was reduced by an amazing amount and everything worked out brilliantly… I love it when that happens…

So we left for mexico early on the morning of dec. 27… we drove, which is pretty amazing (to and from mexico and 2 days there in 4 days’ time)… there were 8 of us all together… mostly people I knew pretty well and a few others who I got to know a lot more over the course of 4 days…

We drove to Laredo on Thursday night, and then drove into mexico on Friday morning… our plan was to go and deliver Christmas gifts (clothes, shoes, and toys) to children and teenagers who live at an orphanage in Sabinas Hidalgo, Mexico… we didn't know how we would be received. Besides the fact that there is a language barrier, there could be emotional barriers with the kids. Sometimes kids who have had rough upbringings could be distant with thick walls around them… since we didn't know where these kids were coming from emotionally, we didn't know how it would go that first day…

There was a huge part of me that felt the way I did when I lived in East Asia… in fact, when I would take a picture, I would actually start to count in Chinese the way we would when we took pictures there… and I think I said, "thank you" in Chinese about 20 times an hour… I didn't know why… I guess it was the result of having those words so engrained into my brain when I was out of my own language and culture…

When we drove up, the kids came running up… we were immediately met with smiles and hugs and love and friendship… instantly, it became a time of play and laughter and all-around good times…

We played for the rest of the day and that night… and we gave them their Christmas gifts that night… it was great to see their faces light up, not only at the thought of getting gifts, but just of having new friends and a bunch of crazy Americans to play with…

It felt like we had been there for about 5 days by the next day. We spent some time sightseeing and then came back for lunch and to play some more. During the afternoon, the director brought us inito the office and told us the back stories on most of the kids… some of the stories were pretty basic, but some of the kids have had it really rough their entire lives… it was amazing to think of how open and welcoming some of them were based on their past experiences… we were thankful not to have known the backstories initially so our first encounters could be pure with no tainted opinions based on their pasts.

We played the rest of the day and then went to church with them that night… during church, I sat next to kimara… one of the girls that had won my heart… she was a teenager (14, I think…) and during church, she wrote on my hand, “robyn is my best friend.” Before church, we sat by the fountain and she showed me some of her favorite bible passages and I showed her some of mine… it was pretty incredible to watch her turn to passages that had such depth and talked so much about fear and loneliness… two things that I struggle with a lot… and to see our favorite verses line up so well… at one point, we were reading the same passage… Isaiah 43 together… kimara in spanish and I was reading in english… what a beautiful sound…

After church, we knew that it was almost time for the kids to go to bed, which meant the end of seeing them… we left early the next morning before anyone was awake… so, it meant for a lot of hugs and tears…

We left before any of the kids had gotten up… All in all it was a good trip… I walked away learning a few things and remembering a few more…

1) I learned and remembered the simple joys of “play” – how fun it is just to play and laugh and how that literally knocks down language barriers. It makes me think of the song “It’s a small world” – a smile means friendship to everyone. Cheesy, yes, but it’s easy enough and it’s true…

2) I felt the presence of God when I heard Norma’s laugh… there was something so pure and incredible about her giggle…

3) Sometimes ministry is pushing a swing… it doesn’t have to be hard or complex… just meeting a need… which is sometimes allowing others to feel at ease and just to have fun and experience joy…

4) Simple grace… accepting someone by giving them a hug, or letting a child sit in your laugh or having a child grab your belly by surprise as he says in his best santa claus deep voice, “HO! HO! HO! SOY SANTA CLAUS” is sometimes just as powerful as saying something deep about theological ideas…

5) One of the things that I said (jokingly) while I was there a few times was, “how do you say ‘self-esteem’ in Spanish?” – sometimes doing ministry and being real means looking really dumb… and that’s okay.

I don’t know that I can put any more into words… that’s all I’ve got for today… but I’m glad I got to go and experience it… I was really grateful to get out of my world for a few days and remember the joy that I used to feel about world missions… not that it’s gone… it’s just been a long time…

Jan 13, 2008

that ain’t no etch-a-sketch... this is one doodle that can’t be undid, homeskillet...

i have decided i'm going to be better at writing... here are a few topics i want to write about over the next few weeks... i'm hoping to get to all of them before the end of the month...

1) mexico: a reflection

2) 2007: a wrap-up

3) my new apartment: a portrait

4) movies i've seen recently: a review

5) bingo night: a story

i think there are others... but those are the big ones...

but all of them will have to wait... i'm determined to get to bed before midnight for the first time in over a week... (it will actually be the first time in over a week that i'll be in bed before 2 a.m.)
so get ready for some upcoming words and thoughts...